wow..
finally got the time to pop in here..
been super busy..
honestly 24hrs in a day is really not enough!
so much has been happening
been wanting to blog like forever but somehow my fatigue just got the better of me
work is fine for now,still searching for THE elusive right job for my future though
at the same time,seriously considering going back to finish my diploma
not that I feel insecure,but no harm being better equipped
a dip is a very normal pre-requisite one finds in job offers these days..
even if the job itself is on a very basic level..
so why should I miss out..when I know I have so much more to offer than those who have papers but zero interest,zero experience?
still pondering though..don't wanna make the same mistake I did years ago as a teen
ohhh..by the way..
bought a new camera last week..FINALLY!
been wanting to yak about it for ages but well..that's how occupied I've been..
I don't even have a pic of it to put up now..
That particular day I had a nasty argument with one of my closest friends
I had planned several things for that particular day but thanks to this one trivial argument,i completely lost my mood to be happy.
Thank God Sanjit was free that day..if not for him,I'd prolly have spent the day moping around instead of shopping for my long desired camera..
Bullied him alot too that day hahahahaa..couldn't help it..the situations surrounding us were just too good to resist!
The normally gentlemanly Sanjit eventually gave me a nice sharp punch on my arm..light but SHARP..enough to make me squeal momentarily..
hmmm.
SQUEAAAAAL SANJIT.
SQUUUEAAAALLLL.
hope that rings a bell to you if you're reading this!
I really really really want to be happy but at the end of each day..
No matter how tired I am
There are things that I still can't forget
This pain is now numb but it's there
Like a bad pimple scar.
The tears do run even now and then..but I'm in control.
Well..
too tired to talk much about happy stuff in here now..
had a busy Monday..
I still miss the way things used to be..and I'm glad everyone..EVERYONE is happier now but for me..things will never be the same again..
Yes I will move on..but it's been months and I still haven't quite gotten there yet.
What I can't say I keep trapped in my heart.
I laugh and do the silliest things to keep the tears away..
Yet..
sometimes the smallest push is enough to open the water gates.
I don't even feel like talking about what I feel anymore..
So..yeah.
Au Revoir
This is me,Patricia