Goodness gracious.
It's barely been a week since
I posted and I have been recieving smses asking me if I'm sick or out of Spore.
Ermm..freaky much?


I have been extremely busy..
The eldest big cousin in our family,Galvin,came down to Spore with his wife Jo & son Shaun.. like..hmm..couple of weeks back..I guess I was too preoccupied to even blog about it that time..but yeah they come to Spore from London once every 2yrs or so..coz Jo's family is in Spore..well they specifically make it a point to come down coz of her ill dad..so yeah was very happy & excited to see them,I missed Galvin so much..he's like in his 40s!!Honestly doesn't look his age but yeah...I find myself often laughing at the fact that I have cousins who are so much more older than I am,overseas.Unfortunately,Jo's dad,passed away last week,last Sunday to be exact.. after a long struggle with several illnesses brought on by old age..personally,it was amazing he had held on for so many years..so the entire of last week,was spent at Jo's eldest bro's place..mum and I made sure we turned up every single day to join in the prayers..well for one thing,Jo's family is large..she has 7 siblings,and when you count their spouses & multiple kids..well..you have a whole battalion..a happy,united,loving battalion.Compared to our side of the family which is embarassingly small..and not very focused on family unity & such(long story don't even get me started,I'll make a mega serial on Sun TV one day)..mum & I didn't want Galvin to feel that no one from our family is there for him.
Sigh.Everything went on smoothly & the funeral service was beautiful..yeah even on that day we only reached home at midnight!

So the unexpected demise of Jo's dad pretty much took away all our time last week & after that I was just very very tired & sickly for a couple of days..alarmingly I am getting to be very content spending time on the computer than talking to people!Even when I do chit chat,it's mostly to Glash or Sanjit or Latsy(which is also rare)
I dunno..so much of ideas,so much of opinions,so much to say but no one has the time to hear me out..so I shut myself in while others go on about their life,their friends,their interests etc etc.Sometimes I feel like saying..hey why should I bother when you don't give a rats ass to what I say?Well..I think about it but I don't say it..like they do..coz I care about how others feel.So I shut up about how I feel inspired by music,by RHCP,by Fru,by knowledge..I shut up about how it hurts everytime I see his face,I shut up about how it feels to stay with someone who I hate but have to endure,I just freaking SHUT UP.
Coz it hurts when I start to talk and that's when people on the other end choose to do their own stuff..or interrupt me..or worse still..ask me if I'm done.
Then these same people come after me asking me for help ..for ideas..for favours.
It hurts & I want out.
Hence the low profile.


Think about it.Whoever you people are.
I'm not pin pointing someone,rather a general bunch of you people.
I'm sure by the time you're reading this you'd have felt it in your heart so don't ask me if it's you or not.If you felt it,then you prolly did it to me sometime or another.

I'm also pretty much bored at home these days coz Clif is still not back from Aussie..yeah he left before the funeral..and I chat with him online sometimes..but mostly all of us miss him.It's just not the same without his yelling for food,yelling for the towel,loud football games...sigh.He's having loads of fun though in Melbourne with Karthik , Vicknesh & Nithin..today the boys are heading to Sydney for 3 days...
SOME PEOPLE ARE SOOOO LUCKY!!

Ok I'm supposed to call Glash back..there's still so much to say..I'll be back later....