Ermm.
Hullo people.
Had a rather complicated day.
Barely ate or spoke much.
Feeling troubled about work.
It's not easy to be a blur greenhorn after spending years coaching other greenhorns.
Sigh.
At my current place,the shortest,simplest,random gesture & a few hurriedly strung together instructions in barely understandable Singlish is all the coaching I get.
It not only irritates the hell outta me..it makes me pretty much nervous to even attempt anything..and I feel so stupid..I long to point my finger into HIS stupid sissy face & command him to spend half an hour to thoroughly TEACH ME so that I can give him quality work for the rest of the week.
I WISH I COULD..AND I WOULD IF NOT FOR THE FACT THAT I'M DOING THIS AS A FAVOUR FOR SOMEONE.
Of all the times,my right eye has swelled up bloody red again..it was horrendous..I felt a sharp jabbing pain yesterday and when I went for lunch,my aunt was shocked that my eye had suddenly turned bloodshot.
There was nothing I could do.I didn't bring along my lens container,and I didn't bring my specs.
I dunno how I survived through the mountains of invoices for the next 5-6 hours..all I knew was that I had to get rid of my lens asap!!
Agony..agony..agony.
Today my eye is still battered and red.
Not only that,it stung like bad when I made sudden pupil movements.
It just added to my confusion & disorientation..
Which may perhaps have made that shithead think that I was blur & slow..
When in fact I was trying to be very careful
I have nothing to say la.
Just took a long slow walk home,dreading tomorrow.
Yeah I could easily say.." U nvr teach me what!I'm new!!"
Yet I know that I would not..my years of customer service training has taught me that such excuses are..not helpful at all.
The thing is..I DO WANNA KNOW.
This is what you get when people work ONLY for money & not becoz they love their jobs.
It's perfectly natural..I mean I sure as hell would not work for free...yet I'm shocked at the stony faces I see whenever I turn my head.Save for a couple of gals my age..the rest just stare back or look away.
Would you feel like asking people like that to repeat instructions again while you carefully jot down notes?
I'll stick to my promise,I'll hold on till Friday.
After that,no more of this place.
Not ever again.
So now I'm just gonna count down my days..
& thank my lucky stars this aint a permanent committment.
Too tired,to talk to anyone..
What's the point of explaining my situation?
The people around me are too busy to listen or understand..and people who used to encourage me now just tend to brush off my words.
Haha.
What a sweet life I lead.
Sweet..no no..
Bittersweet 27
This is me,Patricia