What's the next best thing to having a baby sister of your own?
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Having a baby COUSIN sister of your own la!!
hahahaha..
Had loads of fun at Glash's place yesterday
We were celebrating my uncle's birthday in advance
since it's the eve of Vesak Day..
Somehow no matter how much time we spend over at her place..
We always end up parting ways by sighing..
IN RELIEF..
hahaha ok ok no just kidding
Sighing coz time just passes by so fast when we have fun!
We never have enough time to do all the stuff that we usually wanna
Oh well..
Mum isn't as active as she used to be these days
She seems to get easily tired & often just seems to wanna go to bed
Well..I guess the recent bouts of sudden sickness
has really been taking its toll on her,overall
I wish my mum didn't have to work so hard
I feel so useless at times,
all these dark moments aren't helping me at all too
I didn't ask for anything much,
I cherished what I recieved unexpected
Now,just as suddenly,I have lost that joy
No words can ever describe my pain
No words of comfort can erase the tears that have flown
Not just from my eyes,but from my very heart.
Thinking about it now,I know that I will laugh & be happy,
Coz I deserve to smile too.
Yet..deep inside of me..
I know I'm just living for the sake of maybe another chance
Maybe just at least to be able to talk it all out for once
To know where I went wrong
Even a criminal condemned to death gets a final chance to repent & reconcile with God before he's hanged.
I guess,I'm seen as an even lower being.
That's why I have to endure this mental torture every single day.
Even as I talk,even as I tease,even as I argue
The only thing in my mind whenever I see your face or hear your voice is
WHY?
7AM and here I am..still wide awake & yakking away..
What a screwed up meaningless life
I better get going..the more I think about.....stuff..
the more my heart..no no..my head...no no..
actually my very SOUL seems to hurt.
ARGHHHH OK I KNOW ENOUGH RIGHT!!
CHILL I'M DONE WITH WHINING FOR NOW
Glash one day you should just crash over at my place..
We can totally have the house to ourselves..
we'll just chase the oldies out to work hahaha!
Don't worry I'll get Latsy to come & cook for us..
She's an expert at boiling water
HAPPY VESAK DAY Y'ALL!!
This is me,Patricia