Went to watch Ironman on Saturday with Mary,Debra & Sanjit..
It was all like a last minute sorta plan actually but somehow we managed to make it..
What can I say..NO REGRETS watching the movie at all!!
Like I said before,one of the main reasons I was hyped up about the film was coz Robert Downey Jr was gonna play the lead role of Ironman..and I still say now..he pulled it off superbly..
Such subtle expert acting..why..it doesn't even feel like he's acting at all..that's how natural he was..then again..its the notorious yet lovable RDJ we're talking about..hehehe..
We had a good time watching the movie,there were several hilarious moments in the movie..great visual effects..and great soundtrack of course..our only gripes were that we got one of the smallest halls in GV Yishun and the seats were so damn cramped..Sanjit,who had travelled all the way to catch the movie with us at Yishun was grumbling about it for a while..haha I don't blame him...next to us,Mary & Debz were in their own world,discussing the movie in hushed theatrical whispers..
After the movie,Mary & myself being the ever caring,and considerate Yishunites,made sure Debz & Sanjit got onto their respective cabs before we took a slow walk back to our block of flats..
So yeah Saturday night went on pretty much fine..simple but fun..
In the daytime..I was in a horrificly downcast mood..
I opened up my Photoshop and began doing all sorts of stuff..
I dunno why but I love photo manipulations..
Especially of myself..
Which is why you'd always find several of my photos in strange,almost dark like settings..
Others find them eerie...to me that is peace & comfort..
So on that moody Saturday morning I sat at the computer..
and after a whole lot of discarded ideas & stuff..
came up with this..
It took me 2hrs..not because it was super difficult or anything...nah..
it's because the photo that I had taken was somewhat of a cheery one..
A nice bright one,with lots of colours & sunlight..
It took me quite some time to decide to destroy the colours completely & after that the rest just came easily..for those of you who don't get it..its reallly OK..don't bother...
This is how I felt that day at that point of time,and this is the final result of my attempt to portray my feelings visually...
That's it.
Not TRYING to be daaaark,or gothic,or emo here,in fact I used some really pretty sparkles in here to enhance the beauty of the coldness...so yeah..I am never interested in what others think they MIGHT know of me..hahaha..coz the truth is..no one does..but don't ASSUME and TALK ok?The later part of the day I actually felt better coz I started to listen to the old MJ tracks that I loved so much back then as a teenager..and watching some of the videos,which I had watched as a lonely,anti-social, teenager..really..shook me out of my sombre mood..I remembered the days when nothing but music mattered to me..and it was all abt MJ..in fact it's bcoz of his diverse range of talents,that I actually branched out easily into the other genres of music..so MJ was pretty much the reason for my salvation on Saturday hahahaaha!
Sunday was pretty much uneventful..I woke up at 8.30am and I can't even recall what I did..I remember having a bit of breakfast then heading to the computer..I tell you..I have been on the computer for at least 12-15hrs each day without fail for the past 3 weels..it's really bad..but I just don't feel like talking much to anyone about anything..I'm hurt enough..I don't wanna be trying to force myself to act on top of all that..
Volunteered to prepare lunch while mum rested..then spent time doing the cleaning up,washing up etc etc..by the time I went to take a well deserved looong shower my body was aching..I was seriously tired from all the time I've spent at the computer,insufficient sleep,lack of appetite & nutrients..
Sigh..
After having said that..
tonight is the first night in many days that I'm still up at this time..
I dunno why..I'm tired but I just keep doing all this little,unnecessary things just to stall time..
it's almost 3am..
I think I shall go to bed now..
Hmm didn't hear from Twinny at all today..I do remember msging her though..
Arrghh!!
Don't you dare MIA on me now Twinny!!!
I will send the Gurkhas to comb your ulu Westside!!!
Au Revoir darlings...will I ever be happy again..I don't wanna wait anymore..there isn't enough time..I miss the old days..when we knew everything would be alright..why don't you understand?
I miss you
This is me,Patricia