Was too sleepy to update yesterday..yeah on account of having had barely 2 hours of sleep the night before!Sunday night,just as I was on the way home from Eve's place , I had a surprise message from Ravin,a friend whom I got to know on the net last year..It was a pleasant surprise indeed coz it had been ages since we been in touch..and ever since I changed my hp,I lost track of several contacts..well was replying to his smses all the way in the bus till I got home & later he called me around 2am..haha..and he told me so many ghost stories arrrghh..till I didn't dare to stand at my usual open window spot in the kitchen..we spoke till about 4am then I really had to go to bed..but in the morning when I opened my eyes the first thing I remembered were the scary tales I heard from our last conversation,plus the wonderful visuals in my mind from reading other horror stories earlier in the week..coupled with the fact that there was no one at home..I jumped right out of bed!!

Hahahaha..was drowsy the whole day & been feeling really low of late.My hp too has been behaving weirdly recently..switching on & off on its own accord,and once it does that,I'm unable to open new messages or send outgoing ones..I can't describe the amount of irritation I had..and still have..over this seemingly trivial issue.Sigh.The same old feeling of helplessness keeps coming back to haunt me no matter how much I try to make believe that I'm super fine.I guess coz I'm already so tensed inside,little issues like this hp matter cause me to flare up easily.After a very early & light dinner,I turned in around 9pm.Fatigue made me fall asleep almost instantly even though the living room was pretty noisy.

Woke up around 2am..and been awake since then.As I lay there in the dark listening to the silence in my house,I felt truly alone.What kind of a person am I?I retreat when there is activity in the house,and emerge when all have gone to bed.I tried to ignore the tight knot in my throat..I was not gonna cry!Got out of bed & walked to the living room like a zombie. Felt kinda hungry but resisted the temptation to snack on something sweet & went for some grapes instead..came online and saw that Daniel was in here so had some company..sent him some songs & was listening to some acoustic guitar tracks on YouTube.. still hungry so drank some milk haha now I'm fine.

I dunno how the rest of the day is gonna turn out..I do feel a little sleepy now that I have drank the milk..perhaps I ought to catch up on more sleep..after all I barely had sufficient rest again..listening to my good pals,Red Hot Chili Peppers..no matter how much I love the other bands,nothing brings me back to my teenage years like RHCP.Just looking at John Frusciante play his guitar brings a little happiness to my heart for now..and honestly..isn't that what we all need at times??

Just a little happiness..so little to ask for yet so hard to recieve.