Its been some time hasn't it..
seem to be writing alot less these days
that day a new pal commented that he had been reading my previous blog entries
as in my former bloggie in Friendster & he was seriously like..what's wrong with u pat?!!
LoL
I was like whaaaaat?
what did i do now?
hahaha apparently the poor guy found my posts
disturbing & dark
He thought I seriously needed ''help''
hahaha..ok it was hilarious during the conversation but later..
I just went back to visit my old blog after so long
just take a glimpse..and to my horror..
I realised that he was right.
As I clicked on each post,I realised that I used to write without holding back..
to me,it felt very raw and dark..
coz reading the words I used to write
brought back the exact memories & scenarios to me
yet I must say that I was more outspoken..and my writing was smooth and focused..why?
Coz I was telling the truth &
I was not making any attempt to mask the stuff that happened!
and I used to write so much poetry to express myself
unlike these days where I'd rather just shut up &
not let my emotions show too much..
Why?
Just because some people were getting a bit uneasy about the stuff
I wrote about MY life..
I was silly..
I should have never caved in to their incessant nagging
..after all..
why should MY life concern them?
It wasn't as if they were carrying my burdens right?
As I kept scrolling through the pages of my old blog,
I felt a twinge of regret..I dunno why..perhaps I felt that I should have not discontinued my vein of writing?
In all honesty I opened up a new blog to start afresh..but when I compare the 2 blogsites..
this current one seems so cheesy & PLASTIC..
as opposed to my let loose style in the other one.
What what what do I want now?
Do I wanna embrace the problems,MY problems & say it as it is?
or do I wanna just cover it all up & pretend to make merry in here?
Hahahaha..sometimes I think too much.
Who the hell would dedicate an entire blog entry to this topic?
You're looking at the biggest doofus ever.
ME.
This is me,Patricia