I'm going mental
Honestly I am.
People who are close to my heart are now ripping my heart apart
And the more I try to calm myself down,the more angry I get
How can it be that I could actually be pissed with the one person
who seems to be the apple of everyone's eyes?
I dunno?
So that means perhaps its my fault then?
I dunno the answer to anything..
yet I'm a freaking genius for asking everything under the blue sky!
WHY WHY WHY?
Don't tell me to calm down..I'm very calm..in fact I'm so calm I could die from containing it all inside me!!
Supposed to meet Sanjit for movie+makan tomorrow,with my current mood I asked him if he was sure he wanted to meet up with me..its been some time since we had some time out so yeah hopefully it could be a good thing
I have also decided that I need to stop this problematic ranting & worrying once and for all.
I never used to be a pessimist..
In fact I was always the optimistic one
Yet look at me now..
This is not who I am..
I hate reading back on my blogs and seeing so much negative stuff in there brings me down..
Sometimes when we are all alone with no one to confide in..this is what happens.
So those of you who are surrounded by loved ones..
Count your blessings..never take these people for granted.
I have decided not to post anything negative in here
if I can help it..
I hope to be back soon with happier news
This is me,Patricia