Went to church yesterday ..today being Passion Sunday(Palm Sunday) n all..I have made it a point to set aside my personal stuff & make sure I attend mass with my family on Saturday evenings..since I know I hardly can wake up in the mornings the next day to attend Mass ..So its been Novena service followed by Mass for the past 4 Saturdays now..

I must say it feels good.

Firstly its because after a long time,I feel as if there is indeed a path for me to follow in life..yes,I'm still stumbling around in the dark..but I don't feel hopelessly lost anymore..I'm just pushing on ahead till I find that path.

Secondly,I get a chance to actually communicate with my family properly..usually we see one another at the end of a busy working day..they'd be busy in the living room catching up on their TV shows..the younger ones like us would be busy in our own rooms,mostly on the Internet.Now,we get to talk alot more about our opinions as we walk the 15 minute journey to church.Sometimes we even bump into our close relatives after church and we end up spending loads of time catching up.

Thirdly,I see alot of people that I actually USED to know when I was a young kid still in my clumsy bermudas & colourful tops..people whom I viewed from a child's point of view before..now infront of me..and I view them from a young woman's point of view. I see them..they,who used to be in the latest fashions & colours of the late 80s back then..now toned down & subtle..I wonder if I have changed as much..and I wonder if someone else is actually looking at me and thinking the exact same thing..the thing is..I NEVER THOUGHT EVEN ONCE ABOUT THESE PEOPLE IN THE LAST..15 YEARS OR SO..AND TO ACTUALLY SEE THEM AGAIN..brings alot of childhood memories back.

Yes..I know ur prolly thinking this nut thinks too much..well..too bad..i like to give my brains some exercise,see?

Hehehe..and of course..last but not least..I feel closer to God.

I didn't forget about God ok?hahahah

Anyways for some reason..I dunno why I loved the Mass today..

Maybe it was the sight of the fully packed church,pew to pew,floor to floor,all with palm leaves clutched in their hands..

Maybe its the Gospel reading of Christ's Passion that made it beautiful to me?

More than all of that..it was the beautiful singing of the choir.

Having been in one of the church choirs before as a teen,to this day there are many hymns that I still hold close to my heart..especially songs sung during these solemn Lenten period...songs of hope,songs of forgiveness,songs of Israel..so much for one to ponder about..

Oh well..didn't do much today..was supposed to follow mum out but decided to stay in at the last moment..Suddenly felt like listening to Flood by Jars of Clay..Not that I am into Christian rock or anything,but this song rocks!Chatted with Daniel for a while and he sent me some cool songs..Felt bored so decided to update my Friendster layout..Well..could not find what I was looking for even though I browsed thru some of my fave sites..In the end I opened up Photoshop & worked on a background illustration for my Friendster...

Hahaha started out with completely no idea but ended up creating something which I kinda liked..it's not great or anything of course..but do check it out k?Some of you might find it a tad dark but that was the whole idea..Well..am having a slight headache now...so I'll continue working on the layout later..Arggh..I hate having all the unnecessary banners & ads on my profile..Each time we come up with awesome layout codes,Friendster updates & filters them.So sickening..

Anyways..i just realized that my hp is still on my bed!!It's like 8pm and I have not even glanced at my hp the whole day...Damn..

Laterz..