No matter how nice you try to be
No matter how understanding you try to be
No matter how hard you try to swallow your disappointment
Life's still a rotten bitch
I don't ask for much
In fact I don't ask for anything
Yes..it would be NICE if once in a while I can get what I desire without having to be literal about it
Instead of that I get nothing but my very basic hopes shattered
I'm tired of hearing the reasons,the excuses..
We all have friends..we LOVE our friends..but we also have special people in our hearts
We tend to show,in our own ways,these special people that THEY ARE SPECIAL
Why?
So that they know they are important in our lives.
Not everyone realizes this,I guess.
I don't know if I should loathe them or pity them
Yeah.They'd be privy to absolutely everything else EXCEPT this.
Or maybe coz its ONLY me.
Just pat.
Why am I such a loser?Why do I even bother?
I try and try but in the end its all the same.
Is it only when things go astray that people start to care?
No wonder then that there are so much of problems in this world today.
Every lonely,unloved person out there crying for some attention thru their misdeeds.
I don't even know why I'm sitting here bothering to blog when I should be sleeping like every other normal person
Trying to be nonchalant like everything's cool but it's NOT.
What a perfect way to mark the beginning of March.
If you think I'm being a whiner..go rot in hell
This is my blog,these are my words,this is the only way I can release my pent up emotions
I just feel like I wanna be alone for some time
Me and my fucked up pathetic loser self
This is me,Patricia