February 29th...
Leap Year again...
Someone told me that alot of people propose to their sweethearts on this date.
Why ah?
Coz its a once-every-4-years kinda novelty is it?
I just don't see the ermm..big deal actually..
I mean if it's a birthday or something that falls on Feb 29th then yeah its great when its Leap Year..
Oh well..maybe people find it memorable..
To each his own I guess.
I do know that there's an old Irish tradition where the ladies get to propose to the guys on this particular day!
hehehehee
Sounds like fun!
Its like 0253hrs in the morning and I had wanted to go to bed early but here I am as usual banging away on the keyboard.
Sometimes there are stuff that you keep to yourself..stuff that not even your best friend would know about..
EVERYONE HAS SECRETS ok?
I like secrets..
It sucks though when you have problems pertaining to your special secret and you can't speak out about it..coz..DUH..its a secret.
*pouts*
I dunno.It sucks big time coz here I am trying to be the positive,jolly wolly one but all the time I know that I'm a quivering puddle of messy controlled emotions just waiting to be released.
I am so so so so so afraid of my TEMPER..
I am usually very mild mannered & totally thick skin but oh boy,
When i get MAD..i end up hurting all those who stand in my way..
It's no point feeling sorry afterwards..
I still feel rotten.
So I persevere..and I try my best to cheer myself up..
Oh,but oh..this blasted mind of mine..
Always thinking..always pondering..always snatching & pulling at the tiniest bit of unease..
I don't like to cry & I don't wanna anymore...
Its just no use..
You know how people say you should just cry it all out and then you'd feel better n all that shit?
BULLCRAP!!
Yeah you feel better AFTER that one long crying session...you cry it all out till you're dead tired & numb then you think you're a super hero of some sort..invincible and unpenetratable..
WRONG WRONG WRONG
once you start doing that..you're gonna keep seeking that kinda release again and again..
Honestly..I have had enough of crying in the dark & smiling in the daytime..
I'm so over it.
why should I cry silently,gulping for air gaspingly,even contemplating horrid solutions
while the person who hurt me would probably be snoring away comfy in bed??
Not fair rite??
The next time someone makes me pissed or sad..im gonna be MEAN.
yeah just plain ol' nasty.
So beware.
Damn the next person who dares to make me cry.
Ok.
I'm done ranting.
I feel much better.
I feel empowered.
Now i can go to bed and rest in peace.
Au Revoir
This is me,Patricia