February 29th...
Leap Year again...
Someone told me that alot of people propose to their sweethearts on this date.
Why ah?
Coz its a once-every-4-years kinda novelty is it?
I just don't see the ermm..big deal actually..
I mean if it's a birthday or something that falls on Feb 29th then yeah its great when its Leap Year..
Oh well..maybe people find it memorable..
To each his own I guess.
I do know that there's an old Irish tradition where the ladies get to propose to the guys on this particular day!
hehehehee
Sounds like fun!
Its like 0253hrs in the morning and I had wanted to go to bed early but here I am as usual banging away on the keyboard.
Sometimes there are stuff that you keep to yourself..stuff that not even your best friend would know about..
EVERYONE HAS SECRETS ok?
I like secrets..
It sucks though when you have problems pertaining to your special secret and you can't speak out about it..coz..DUH..its a secret.
*pouts*
I dunno.It sucks big time coz here I am trying to be the positive,jolly wolly one but all the time I know that I'm a quivering puddle of messy controlled emotions just waiting to be released.
I am so so so so so afraid of my TEMPER..
I am usually very mild mannered & totally thick skin but oh boy,
When i get MAD..i end up hurting all those who stand in my way..
It's no point feeling sorry afterwards..
I still feel rotten.
So I persevere..and I try my best to cheer myself up..
Oh,but oh..this blasted mind of mine..
Always thinking..always pondering..always snatching & pulling at the tiniest bit of unease..
I don't like to cry & I don't wanna anymore...
Its just no use..
You know how people say you should just cry it all out and then you'd feel better n all that shit?
BULLCRAP!!
Yeah you feel better AFTER that one long crying session...you cry it all out till you're dead tired & numb then you think you're a super hero of some sort..invincible and unpenetratable..
WRONG WRONG WRONG
once you start doing that..you're gonna keep seeking that kinda release again and again..
Honestly..I have had enough of crying in the dark & smiling in the daytime..
I'm so over it.
why should I cry silently,gulping for air gaspingly,even contemplating horrid solutions
while the person who hurt me would probably be snoring away comfy in bed??
Not fair rite??
The next time someone makes me pissed or sad..im gonna be MEAN.
yeah just plain ol' nasty.
So beware.
Damn the next person who dares to make me cry.
Ok.
I'm done ranting.
I feel much better.
I feel empowered.
Now i can go to bed and rest in peace.
Au Revoir
In a really crappy mood
Had been raining ever since I got home
Supposed to meet up the gerls for dinner but in the end Koko couldn't make it
Met Mary instead and spent some time outside..
Was complaining to Mary about my recent skin problems..
Since January alot of people started commenting that my face seemed to look darker suddenly
I noticed it too but thought it was a temporary thing..as I usually do not have any problems with my skin
I stopped consuming carbonated drinks & tried to stay out of the sun as much as possible
Yet,now its almost March and everyone has commented the same thing..
Now its gotten me worried.
About the only thing that I have stopped doing now,since I'm so busy,is my usual cleansing/toning/moisturizing routine..but surely that can't be so bad that my skin colour would change rite?
As I was discussing this with Mary,I realised that of late,instead of using my normal moisturizing lotion beneath my make-up..I have been using a small amount of liquid foundation for my base!
Well its Lancome and my mum and I both use it..but my mum's skin is still perfect..
Based on this..I can only come to the conclusion that either the foundation is not right for my skin..OR..the fact that I had repeatedly failed to completely cleanse my face off the foundation & make up has resulted in clogged up skin pores,thus making my complexion darker and duller.I may not have realised the importance of make up removal before..coz I did't use any foundation..but now that I am..its a nightmare!
I have decided to stop using any make up at all for the time being,save for bare essentials..and start using my trusty old moisturizer again..
It really gives me very low morale when I know that my skin should not be looking this way at all!!
I hope I'm in time to reverse the damage..
Sorry for talking so much about this but its really a big matter to me..
Since I like the natural look,its a must for me that my skin is always presentable..WITHOUT the make up.
Good skincare is of utmost importance..cosmetics are just meant to enhance..
So ladies out there..remember..with the wide array of fanciful cosmetics out there..be careful how you use them..
I used to think that I was too thickskin to have any problems using stuff..but prevention is better than cure..
If you are using foundation & stuff make sure they contain SPF..
Will keep you guys updated on my time reversal attempt on my skin!!
Aloha kiddos!
Had a loooong day today
Felt a bit better today after the previous bouts of nausea & intermittent coughing spells
Was checking out more cool videos about 2012 with Sanjit over MSN..
yeah yeah I know I said I would not discuss that again but its just too tempting to ignore
So spent some time in the early evening chatting hard over that then at around 7pm went out for a while..after which met mum who was on her way home after work..
Was feeling very tired by this time..I don't know why..even though the air was cool I was feeling hot
Went on to Sembawang with mum to collect some stuff from my aunty
While waiting for her,got a call from Sanjit..who was alerted to some news from his friend
Well I had no idea coz I hadn't heard anything but I asked my aunt when she came and she filled me up on the details..
Apparently the JI leader the authorities had arrested & detained some years back,had escaped!
There was an islandwide manhunt going on in search of him..
So scary right!
Updated Sanjit & some of my other pals and rushed home to catch the news headlines..
Hope they catch him soon..such a dangerous person!
It made me think..here we are talking and discussing about the end of the world..as if on cue this terrorist escape alert is issued..
Eerie coincidence.
*shudder*
Well just had my dinner..waiting for parents to finish watching their MEGA SERIALS hahhaa..
Oooh chatted with Twinny for a while just now..was helping her hunt for Friendster profile layouts..and catching up on gossip at the same time..hahaha..hopefully we can meet up soon!!
Ok thats it for now people...
Will definitely update later..alot to yak about
God bless our souls..
Its bad enough that I'm in an extremely crappy mood..
Then I come in here and see some bum leaving crap msgs on my tagboard..
LOSER!!
Whatever rocks your boat la ok..immature people have immature hobbies I guess..
So..then back to my life..
Would you guys believe I hardly spoke a word to anyone today?
I dunno..very strange day..
No one seemed to be in the mood to make small talk..all too preoccupied with work..
OR PRETENDING TO BE..
I simply did my stuff & surfed the net at the same time..
Bah!
Who needs them anyways..
Soon..very soooon..I'm gonna bade this monstrous place a hearty sayonara!
I'm kinda sad..its been some time since I met up with any of my buddies..
I really feel bored & sickened with the same old dull routines..
Not to mention the lack of activities forces me to actually think of problems & worries which I usually bury at the back of my mind..
If no one's gonna call me..or call me out..I'm just gonna take my medicine and sleep early..
There's a limit to the number of books I can read..or the amount of time I can spend on the computer..
Sickening.
Sickening.
Sickening.
GO AWAY!!!
ARRRGHHHH
Arrrgghh can't seem to sleep again..and its a cold cold night..
Was kinda unwell so had a really traumatising Monday..
Came home n slumped infront of the computer again
sheesh
What a life I lead
Sometimes its no fun having NO commitments
Was chatting with Sanjit online for some time..
Somehow after exchanging some music videos,we stumbled on to the topic of ..The End of The World.
Sigh.
We were discussing several issues and contemplating even to the extent of guessing the possible candidates that could turn out to be the anti-Christ...
The topic stretched on till almost 3am and poor Sanjit finally had to log off to get some sleep..I was really bombarding the poor guy with tons of questions hahaha..
BUT
I wasn't satisfied yet
So I went on to read and investigate..its all very interesting actually because there are SO MANY points of view!!
I guess you guys know by now the next doomsday prediction is for 2012..
The first thing I thought when I read about 2012 was...
YEAAAHHH RITE.
However..SEVERAL documentaries later..I started getting a bit gloomy.
So many theories..so many prophecies..the Bible..Nostradamus..Scientology..the last war on Earth
Yes as a follower of Christ I have reflected on the Revelations in the Bible..
but WHAT i realllly wanted to know now,was not the end of the world from a Christian's point of view,but the end of the world from a universal point of view..so people who are reading this,please do not ask me to go and read the Bible again I know what needs to be done ok?Just that sometimes we have to ask questions..
Cool?
So..lets see...2012
I would be a grand old lady of 32
God knows if I'd be married with kids or still crazily goofing off
Now I feel like crap
It suddenly hit me that IF the world does really come to an end in the near future..I really do not have much to show for in my life..and when you think about it..if everything is gonna come to a standstill..then why bother at all ..rite?Why should I work and save up money?
Why should I diet & exercise?
Why should I fall in love and get married?
Why should I have kids?
Why should I bother..when everything is gonna go BOOM!!!
at that very moment I hated everyone my age who have already done all of the above
Then I relaxed.
I closed the YouTube page I was viewing & walked to the window to quietly reflect.
I think...my curiosity is gone.
I don't wanna know about Doomsday now.
After all..its all words by MEN
I still wanna experience so many things in life..
I will just follow my heart and live then when the time comes ,die happily knowing that I never spent a single day hesitating to celebrate life.
SOOOOO my dear friends..you see..its so easy to be brainwashed & affected by what you see and hear around you..but always remember..in the end,you have to be answerable to yourself..not to others..
Gosh..I'm gonna have to tell Sanjit that we're never gonna open up this topic again..
One thing I sure know..if anyone out there thinks that we are facing our last days on Earth..this should be a good time to IMPROVE on your life..and not go around be a moping pessimist..
I'm not gonna post up any links here for the prophecies & info shows coz if you're a deep thinker like me..you're bound to pull your hair out asking questions..for which there are no ready answers...
If you just wanna check them out for fun..just go to YouTube and type in stuff like 2012, or anti-Christ..and yeah you should be able to dig up some interesting stuff..
Phew....
I really talk alot,don't I?
Oh and by the way
The part about hating people my age..
Who are already happily married with kids & their dream jobs & homes..
Yeah..you people..
I STILL DO HATE YOU
YOU SUCK!!!
Au revoir my sweets..
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REMEMBER THE HIT HINDI FILM "DISCO DANCER" ?
YEAHHHH..THIS SONG IS A REVIVAL OF THAT..
HAHAHA..IM LOVIN IT!!
Geez..
0655hrs Saturday morning and still wide awake..
Have not been updating in here much since Tuesday eh..
Well well..not that I was busy or anything..
I was just kinda mood out & kinda low key
Hahaha no particular reason..just simply felt that way
I'm still coughing & now both my ears are taking turns to get blocked!
That day at the MRT suddenly my I could see my mum moving her lips but I could not catch her words..
WHY?!Coz both my ears decided to block themselves at the same time!
I had to grab my mum's arm and beg her to stop yakking..
I DIDN'T EVEN DARE TO RAISE MY VOICE COZ I COULDN'T GAUGE MY OWN VOLUME!!
Really horrible feeling..I tried to induce yawning to get them unblocked but to no avail..
I even tried tilting my head..side to side..back and forth
I can't even remember when one side was back normal..
As for now..its the same... so YEAH..with the cough and all..
I'm feeling mighty irritated
I didn't get to hang out with ANY of my friends this past week!
My sleeping hours have reverted back to the abnormal pattern of 2 hrs sleep..3 hrs wide awake..then trying to sleep again..
I guess I'm thinking too much.
Well..it helps that I have been occupying myself with some good books & movies..
That's about the only kind of distraction available in my life now!
I MISS TWINNNNY...
=(
Oh well..will go off to bed now..update later kayz!!
PS:
Ever felt sometimes that even though you seem to have loads of people around you..
you're actually really just standing in their shadows?Then you start to wonder..
what you really mean to them...
hmm
ok ok NOW I gotta go..muah
Ooooh had a rather rough start to the week
Feeling terribly ill for no apparent reason
Waking up suddenly from nightmares
Well been spending the past few days catching up on some movies which I didn't manage to catch at the cinemas
Therefore..in the past 4 days I managed to complete watching Silent Hill,300,Meet The Spartans and on Sunday night Sanjit called to inform me that HBO was showing The Prestige!!So I finally managed to catch that too!
*sigh*
Hugh Jackman...
Soooo reminds me of SOMEONE
hahahahhaa
SSSSHHHHHHH
Plan to finish watching The Departed & The Illusionist soon too..
Yeah yeah so what if I'm backdated..a true movie buff would catch the flick somehow ok..bleahhhh
Anyways Twinny is on the 2nd day on her new job..
Hang in there ok gal?
Things are gonna be just fine.
I need to re-evaluate and really watch my meals
I have started stocking up on fruits & greens & am trying not to be soooo picky & choosy at mealtimes
That's a good start..I hope!
Darn it I doubt Sanjit & I can meet up to catch a movie tomorrow..he may have some work commitments..
Soooo sad sooo sad..oh well..there's always another day I guess...
There..started coughing again..
I really feel like some sick chicken..honestly feel so blueeeee
Arrrghhhhhhh
I was channel surfing as usual and chanced upon this programme on the Discovery channel..
It was just starting and it was titled..."The Girl Who Lives In The Dark"
Fascinated by the title itself,I set down the remote control & started to watch
Based in rural China,the subject is based on a 9 year old girl,Wan Lao Yang
Unlike many kids of her age,she was unable to run about outdoors or even go to school
This is because this young girl suffered from a skin disorder that caused large unsightly crustlike tumours to grow on her face..
The situation was so bad that the poor girl was horribly disfigured.
The little girl's condition was left untreated & would have probably been unknown to the world if not for the interest of a doctor from UK.
Wan Lao Yang was diagnosed to be suffering from Xeroderma Pigmentosum..
a very rare,incurable genetic skin disorder.
Sufferers from this disorder have to prevent facing the sunlight or any UV rays.
They also found out that her tumours were cancerous & she'd probably not live for long..with or without surgery.
She did undergo surgery but she was left blind in one eye & lost her nose
Nevertheless her family was content and she was even able to fulfil her desire of going back to school.
Then doctors found out that the cancer had spread to her lungs & she in fact had very little time left to live.
It was a very touching documentary & it would melt even the most hardened hearts to see the little girl,who was always cheerful & full of zest & hope.
I hope you guys would get a chance to see it..probably some of you would have already read or heard about this case..but to actually watch & follow it day to day was a real eye-opener.
It made me think..
Here we are complaining about little discomforts a couple of pimples cause us..
Grumbling about asthetics..
While there are many out there..
Like Wan Lao Yang..
Who'd give anything just to have a complete face.
Even her very own life.
Its almost 5am and I'm like still awake
Even though I feel reallllly tired..I dunno..just don't feel like going to bed
Alot of things on my mind
Feeling blue & restless
I feel like something bad is about to take place..but..
really dunno why I feel this way
*frowns*
oh well.
Had a fun time today at Glash's place!
We celebrated Jaryl's birthday & Glash and I took loads of pix
Ahem ahem...
Actually MOST of the shots are of HER la..but nvm...
Me.. snatched poor Glash's specs and goofing around in them
We had a nice variety filled dinner ,after which Jaryl told us some of the latest freaky camp stories
Ohhh..thank goodness I'm not doing National Service!!
I'd prolly AWOL at the first opportunity!
Then Glash and I had a private waltz dance around the kitchen
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Well..we left around 11.30pm..coz wanted to get cab back to Yishun before the dreaded midnight surcharge..
Eh..Jurong to Yishun damn far ok..
Was so busy kissing and hugging the others that forgot to tell Glash goodbye!!
Hahahahahahahaha
ooops!
Till she went like..OH YA FINE JUST FORGET ME OK!
Next meet up--March holidays!!
Well was busy smsing Twinny in the cab..
Aaaahhhhhhh she's starting work on Monday...
HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I MENTIONED THAT ALREADY?!!
Gosh..everyone seems to be moving on..I need to buck up ..its already mid-Feb!!
Was updating my Facebook...and chatting with Twinny on MSN..
Then went to continue reading my Agatha Christie collection
Now I'm sitting here rotting
Well everyone's gonna wake up and so I'd better head on to bed..
Gosh its Sundaaaay..arrghh..I promised myself that I'd attempt to make it for morning mass at least this week...
*hides face*
What an absolutely shitty day
Planned to catch a movie with Sanjit but all the showtimes were so damn late
I have been wanting to catch Sweeney Todd for the longest time
Well we re-scheduled our movie outing for next week
Hope that works out
There is this very disturbing aura
The whole of last night I was kept awake by the sound of a wailing followed by laughter
Initially thinking that it was some crazy Ah-Lians under my block I just silently cursed under my breath
Later I realised that the alternate sounds were not made by a collective group
On the contrary,it was coming from just one person.
Usually my area is filled with kaypohs..oops..I mean..CIVIC minded residents..
They are very quick to call up the men in blue for the slightest disturbance
Last night no one as much as peeped out of the windows..
Except for me.
I was craning my neck left and right and peering out of my kitchen windows to spot the noisemaker
NO ONE!
I could hear the sounds but when I turned in that direction...NOTHING
I noticed that it was suddenly getting very windy..so I closed the windows and went back to my book
Oh by the way I'm currently reading this short stories collection by Agatha Christie!
30 crime/suspense/supernatural thrillers jam packed into one compact book
Extremely entertaining..
So yeah like what I was saying..it was a darn weird night
Earlier in the evening some dogs had been barking while I was hanging on the line with Twinny..
The fascinating thing was..when one dog stopped another would pick up and continue the barking..
How did I differentiate the dogs?
The barkings were coming from various directions la,stupid!
So..barking in the late evening,wailing & moaning in the late night
Mere coincidence?
I dunno
Well after blogging in here last night I watched ''Silent Hill''
Some of my friends told me it was a boring movie but I had seen the trailer before..so went on to watch it
I must say it was a tad slow moving at first
Later though the pace picked up
The entire movie had this foggy..dim atmosphere..
I felt like I was watching ''30 Days of Night''
The movie was NOT boring though
I found it to be rather interesting & disturbing at the same time
Interesting effects too
The bummer?
I DUNNO WHAT THE ENDING'S ABOUT!!!
I tried to check out some forums online but drew a dead end
Most people were talking about THEIR own theories
I could not find a single solid piece of evidence to support any of these theories
So..well talking about it makes me think again now.
Maybe I shall go back again and try to re-think the possible ending.
AAAARRRGHHHH
i know I'm rambling on and on but I feel so..weird
Kinda restless..and a bit sad
Have you ever felt that people can sometimes hurt you without even saying a word or doing a thing?
Maybe not?
Yet that's exactly what I feel now.
Hurt.
I wish sometimes people would just think about the feelings of others.
Just because one is silent does not mean everything is going just peachy fine.
Okies gotta go now
Was chatting with Glash online while blogging..
She is also mood out
Sigh
What a crappy day
I have prayers to attend later at night
Hopefully I can push aside my thoughts & concentrate fully
Twinny if you're reading this,
DON'T SLEEEP EARLY LAAAA
I WANNA TALK TO UUUU
=(
Sooo how did Valentine's Day go for you kiddos?
Just came home..
Was supposed to meet up with Shane for a movie but
had to postpone the plan due to work..
Arrghhh
Oh well
TOMORROW someone's supposed to bring me to the moviessss..
LOOOONG overdue plan..
Let's see
Well its cousin Jaryl's birthday tomorrow but we can only celebrate it when he books out this Saturday
Siiigh.
So Glash..our GOSSIP session has to be on hold till Saturday..
Well Twinny starts her new job next week...
I'm gonna be so LOSSSSST!!!
I'm hanging on to my current job but my patience is wearing thin.
VERRRRY thin.
So Twinnnny..the roles may be reversed soon..
you're gonna be a busy woman & I may end up rotting at home..
*Sob Sob*
BORED BORED BORED
I have been coming to an empty home for the past few weeks
It didn't affect me at first coz everyone's busy with their own stuff
In fact I gleefully appreciated the time I could have in privacy
It's starting to be the pits now though
With no one to talk to..
I find myself drifting from room to room
Computer to TV
Kitchen to living room
IM SO SICK AND TIRED OF SEEING THE COMPUTER
AT WERK
AT HOME
WHAT A LIFE!!!
*STOMPS OFF*
So..once again its the eve of Valentine's Day
Once upon a time..it was a special day
Yeah I was young..which sane girl could resist the sheer excitement of it all?
The insanely pink greeting cards..
the candies..the teddy bears..the bouquets
the bashful exchange of glances..
the fluttering of hearts..
the dates..
Why is it then that now this day means nothing to me?
It's not that I don't have dates
It's just that the feeling of anticipation..has died down
Simply put..I don't give a damn if its Feb 14th or 15th or 33rd!
Nothing against it..just tired I guess
How many bouquets..how many teddy bears..how much candy..
does it take to show your love?
*smiles*
Am I still searching for the One?
Or has he been found?
How would you know when even I don't?
Anyway enough of my reflections..
Here is a song that I find sweetly romantic
Shayne Ward is so yummy!
I'm not putting up No Promises..that song makes me tear up easily!!
*sniff sniff*
So my dear readers,dearest precious loves(you know who you are)
Happy Valentine's Day..now lets sing & get breathless with Shayne!!
If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we’d say I do
And if we had babies they would look like you
It’d be so beautiful if that came true
You don’t even know how very special you are
[Chorus]
You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless
And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I’m thankful for the life we’ve made
And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don’t even know how very special you are
You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You’re like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You’re something special
I only hope that I’ll one day deserve what you’ve given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life
You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless
You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless
Coughing in spasms
It's so bad it aint funny I tell ya
Hmm remember earlier I lamented I had watched the entire season of Heroes on YouTube?
Well i just checked the episode guide for Season 2 and apparently I was wrong!
The 8th episode is not the final one..there are like 11 episodes altogether!!
Hmm no wonder I felt that the storyline was a little incomplete..
I guess its coz of the writers strike thingy going on..
Oi not my fault ok..I thought that they'd continue in Season 3..
Now I have something to look forward to after all...
YATTA!!!
hahahaha I love it when Masi Oka yelps that..
Anyways was just fooling around with photoshop earlier coz I was so darn bored
Had no inspiration to try anything new so just fooled around with some pics I recently took..
Suddenly realised that I even though I edit my pics most of the time I play around with the colors and lightings..
I never tried to get rid of blemishes like my dark eye rings or eye bags or laugh lines..or whatever
So out of curiosity I just started playing around trying to get rid of my oh-so famous dark eye rings..
I did it.
Yeah yeah YAAAATTTA again
I felt like I was looking at a totally different Patricia.
That wasn't me.
I mean..yeah the picture was perfect but ..so EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKS!
So PLASTIC.
I'm sure if I were to look like that naturally it would be great and all..but
to enhance my photo to LOOK like that...
I mean..I guess I'm just too used to my face I guess
Hahah AND my dark eye rings..
I saved that picture just as a reminder not to go overboard next time..
I guess I'm just perfectly flawed.
That's just the way I like it
On a more dismal note..
Im feeling rather blue
I know why but I don't wanna think about it
Just kinda hope alot of stuff will be settled this year
There's only so much I can take
Been having this irritating bout of sneezing and itching throat
Today it was just worse
So darn mood off & thanks to all that sneezing im having this icky dry skin around my nose
ARGGH
I wonder if it's because I over-binged on those sweet cooling mandarin oranges over the festive season?
Not my fault whaaaat..there was like one big box filled with them..
So much for trying to eat healthy
Hmph
Updated my Friendster profile after so long..took a new pic to go along with it..and apparently everyone loves the current pic..
Siiigh..if only I could capture such flattering shots all the time.
Still looks the same to me though..except that I'm in brighter colors
Oh well.
I missed the 3rd episode of Heroes last Tuesday and after failing to catch the re-runs on TV..logged on to catch it online.
I was so bored that I watched not just the 3rd episode but the 4th and the 5th and 6th and the 7th and the 8th..till I finished watching the ENTIRE season's episodes.
THANKS ALOT YOUTUBE!NOW I HAVE NOTHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO FOR THE NEXT 1.5 MONTHS...
Which also meant I had been glued to the PC for almost 5 straight hours.
At the end of the viewathon..I felt extremely uneasy & giddy.
Sob Sob.
NBC ........HOW LONG TILL SEASON 3?????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Since its an extremely boring Sunday..
I have been rotting infront of the pc
Hey yesterday Sanjit sent me a couple of clips of the top commercials in Superbowl '08
Hahaha most of them were about Budweiser..but here are some that I reallllly enjoyed!
Just an update on the earlier post below..barely after an hour..
Now my mum n other aunts have checked around &
apparently are half inclined to believe this whole load of crap
After a fruitless 30 mins of debating with them I gave up
I told them that they are extremely insecure &
that when it comes to these matters
Leave me out of it
Why are the elders so stuck on the old ways?
Why can't they at least try to listen to reason?
What they have been taught before and what we know now is so different
I wish they would stop listening to others & listen to their own hearts
With that I shall end this post
I have so much to rant & rave about
I really dunno where to start
If you're not in the mood to read about anything to do with religions today..
I'd suggest you stop reading..RIGHT NOW.
No?You wanna stay?Ok be my guest..
Now if you know me really well you'd think by now that I'm not the BEST person to speak about God
You'd know that I don't attend church regularly every Sunday & you won't find me on my knees praying often too.
However..amazing as it may seem to you guys..MY FAITH IS VERY STRONG.
Yes..I know that we have to pray and that we have to go to church..BUT LET ME ASK YOU MY DEAR FRIENDS..how many of those who do that REALLY have God in their hearts?
I do.
What's the point of going to church and praying so much but then you have jealousy & bitterness in your heart,spite & anger in your words?WHAT IS THE FREAKING POINT?
Recently my dad made an aquanintance with a pastor from India.This pastor is also a missionary..running a large orphanage back in India.This pastor was coming to Singapore and somehow my dad undertook the responsibilty of being his chaperone..this displeased my mum alot.
Simply bcoz we are Catholics and ..of course when I say pastor you'd know that he's from the Protestant denomination.My mum is ok with that..coz we are all in fact Christians..BUT my mum didn't want this guy to come to OUR house and criticize OUR practices & beliefs.
I kept silent I didn't have much to comment coz I have loads of Protestant friends who are very nice indeed..yes I have come across some nasty people but those were few..
Well everything went well and this pastor was a very spiritual person,who prayed with all his heart n soul & never once was there a mention that our denominations are different.
In fact on the last day of prayers,we even invited the rest of our extended family members and they enjoyed the prayer session thoroughly.
Then one of my aunts..who had been attending a Catholic retreat recently,pulled me aside.
THIS IS WHERE I STARTED LOSING MY COOL.
She started to tell me that its wrong to help people who condemn our faith.
I was baffled
I asked her..who did that?
She then pointed discreetly to the pastor
According to her,at the retreat,they were told never to mix or associate with the Protestants bcoz they condemn Mother Mary.However it's perfectly alright to mix with the Muslims,the Hindus,the Buddhists coz they DO NOT condemn other religions & faith.
SO WHAT YOU'RE TELLING ME IS...ITS PERFECTLY FINE TO BE FRIENDS WITH OTHER FAITHS BUT CHRISTIANS SHOULD FIGHT WITH CHRISTIANS?
WOW.
HOW CHRISTIAN IS THAT?
I kept my words under control and told her,that this pastor had done nothing but pray for us and with us.He had said nothing to condemn Mother Mary even though my house is surrounded with her statues & images.In fact his EXACT words were..''I have come here NOT to convert you,or ask you to change churches or come to MY way..all I ask of you is FAITH''.
My aunty still didn't get it.
She went on to say that by HELPING these organizations,we're glorifying those who condemn US.
I don't get it.
You mean to say that you will only help a person based on his/her religion?
You mean it's wrong to help a person from another religion?
Why for the love of God..WHY?
Aren't we all made from the same substance?
Why is this ideology of RELIGION overtaking COMMON SENSE & HUMANITY?
Always..always always...REMEMBER..
GOD NEVER MADE RELIGIONS.
ITS HUMANS WHO STARTED SPLITTING UP INTO RELIGIONS.
If you can tell me that you'd ignore a dying man just because of his religion,then I tell you..no matter how much you give to charity,no matter how much you go to church,no matter how much you pray..in the eyes of God..UR A SINNER.
I told all these to my aunt in a very sublte way but I walked off after that..
I confided in my mum & my other cousins who also shared my view.
Friends..like I said earlier..I have no right to advise or caution anyone but remember..We seek God in places of worship ..they are made of bricks & plaster..no matter how beautiful or majestic,they can be torn down..
Instead..keep God in your heart..for that can never be torn down..
I say this not just for the followers of Christ but for all my dear friends ..whatever religion you practise..
Let us not be blinded by the words & myths of others..remember,there is always a dark force trying to split up the followers of God..while we are busy fighting amonsgt ourselves,we fail to realise that we may very well be falling into a dark trap.
This post is not intended to offend anyone..I say what I feel from my heart.
This is my right,its my free will to practise my faith the way I want to
I don't need others to tell me if its acceptable or not..coz I'm not praying to THEM..but to God.
Its 5am and I have yet to sleep
I just took in the papers and saw a rather sad headline.
Singapore Zoo's very own famous personality..Ah-Meng has passed away.
Apparently she died of old age.
Well..that's life I guess..whether you're an animal or a human..
SIGH
As you may recall..I was feeling rather restless yesterday
I took a stroll in the late evening after my shower
Just to clear my mind & to get some fresh air
Well no chance of that coz all I inhaled was the thick heavy scent of burning joss sticks & incense
Hahaha sorta made me think of the Chinese horror stories I used to read about
Anyways came home & watched a bit of the movie '300'
YES YES I KNOW IM FREAKING BACKDATED
what to do!!
I love movies but I can't always find the time to catch them at the cinemas
Either I'm too busy or my friends can't make it
So yeah watched it halfway and it was AWESOME
Chatted with Glash,Sanjit & Jason for a while
Forced Glash to play a game of online speedpool with me..
I WON!!!
Hahah then she challenged me to a round of Reversi..
I WON AGAIN!!!
ahem ahem
One by one my dear MSN mates started logging off and I was left alone once again staring blankly at the screen
I was not in the mood to change my Friendster layout
I was not in the mood to update my Facebook
I was not in the mood to learn anything new on Photoshop
So I just grabbed a nice cold mandarin orange from the fridge & watched some cartoons
Was channel surfing & happened to chance upon the movie ''Little Women'' on HBO Hits
I remember reading the heartwarming tale of a closely knit family of 4 sisters before but I had never seen the movie
So just to refresh my memory..I kept watching the movie.
Before I knew it,I was hooked
It was as if I had never read the book before!
Even now..I don't remember the ending being the same as what I read before..
Then again..they might have made some changes here and there
It's a damn bloody touching story..for those of you who have never even HEARD of this tale before..
Please..do yourselves a favour and catch it.
Well..I think I shall go off to bed now..
It's 5.20am..I have a long day ahead later..
Adios amigos
Im uber bored
Super freaking BORED
There's freaking nothing on the telly
Did check with the girls if they'd be free for a movie or something but didn't work out
Exasperated
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH
Worst holidays ever
Slept late woke up late slacked
EVERYONE SEEMS TO BE IN A LAZY MOOD
im so RESTLESS i could just CRY!!!
Trying to maintain my peace by chilling out blasting songs
Was chatting on the line with Glash for some time
Now am gonna watch some movies online
I AM ABSOLUTELY NOT GONNA JUST SIT & ROT
Will be back later..in the meantime enjoy this track from 2 unique artistes
Been rather busy over the week..
Its the season of Lent & my family and I have started our abstinence from meat fast
We cease our fast in April,after celebrating the grand mass on Easter Sunday
Lent is a time for us to reflect,pray & sacrifice
Overall we become closer to God
For me its a time to get in touch with the roots of my religion
Being a born Catholic doesn't mean I always know 100% about my religion
There's always alot to learn..just when you think you have it all figured out
According to the Bible ,these 40 days basically symbolise the 40 days Jesus spent in the desert & resisted the 3 temptations of Satan..
Well that's just a summary,for those who have been asking me about my practices
You can always find out more online..but try not to trust everything on the Internet..after all everyone has varying opinions which they post on the Net..so not 100% reliable..if you know what I mean
*smile*
Well..I can't wait for Easter..wheeeeeee..somehow Easter mass is always more grand & significant than Christmas mass..at least that's my opinion..
On a lighter note..
it was Sanjit's birthday yesterday!!
Met up with him for lunch
We went to Thai Express @ the Esplanade & since it was my first time there I was pretty blur
Lucky Sanjit was able to reccomend some dishes
THEY WERE DELICIOUS!!
The food had just the right amount of tangy spicyness & the ambience was light & friendly
You can bet we'd be going there again
After that we went window shopping which was so FUN & FUNNY!
We laughed and laughed so much it was a wonder we didn't get chased out!
The birthday boy had to go back shortly so I gave him his gift..haha which I made a mess of wrapping!!
I was so half hearted to give it to him but told him the truth..and made him promise not to look at the gift till he got home ..and even then,to only open it when he was alone!hahahaha..it was THAT bad.
Well anyway I hope he likes his gift & the surprise package Latsy & I had arranged to be delivered to his place..
Hehehehe..
So well yeah that was yesterday ..and today I'm rotting at home..
SO BORED
Woke up late & been sitting in front of the PC since then
Arghh I hope something interesting happens to entertain me..
Oh yeahh before I forget I better call Glash
Its been ages since we TALKED!!!
GONG XI FA CAI folks..
Toodles
0409hrs on a Sunday morning.
or rather..laaaaate Saturday nite..whichever way suits u
as usual..not sleepy
well managed to get my massage therapy appointment for the afternoon
woke up around 11ish and stumbled/tumbled/crawled outta bed
my appointment was for 2.30pm but I left home around 1.30pm ..just in case
it was drizzling slightly but i was too lazy to carry an umbrella
so ignoring my mum's nagging i plugged in my mp3 earplugs and left
I was really looking forward to the session..
DAMN I NEEDED IT LIKE HELL..
Not bad..I wasn't disappointed..made friends with several therapists there
All very nice & friendly
YEAH..OF COURSE LA..IM PAYING INNIT?
hahahahaa
Well the bummer was when I was about to make the payment,the dumb machine kept declining my card
I gracefully retained my composure & asked for the nearest ATM
Well that dumb building didn't have any so I had to cross over to Funan IT Mall..
Would you believe my luck..it was raining!
Was talking to Sanjit on the way & double confirmed with him the location of the ATM
Well no choice I had to cross over,then over there the bloody ATM queue was so long..
Walked back again with the cash & this time it was really pouring!
Made my payment & somehow in my ''kancheongness'' replied the cashier in Mandarin when she accidentally talked to me in Mandarin!hahahaha..she was shocked..I was like..oops..
Then she smiled and started teasingly continuing the convo in Mandarin just to see if I could catch up and when I could..she exclaimed.."Waaaah you know ah!Like that cannot speak behind your back hor!"
I was like yeah yeah...
After that called Latsy up and updated her on what had happened
It was raining too heavily for me to walk out to the MRT station so ended up wasting more time
In the end...out of sheer weariness...I walked in the rain..
So that makes it a total of 4 times between yesterday and today that I have been caught in the rain.
LORD HAVE MERCY ON ME.
I realllly don't wanna fall ill again
Well came home around 5.30pm..didn't consume anything the whole day so had a quick lunch ..
We were expecting a guest so I hung around for a bit till the guest came...smiled & spoke a bit then escaped into my room..and slept like a baby!
WOW the massage really made me feel so relaxed..
I'm looking forward to my next session already
Well woke up around 11pm..chatted on MSN with Latsy for a while..
Happened to channel surf & came upon this programme ''TRUE HORROR'' on Discovery
Settled down to watch it & it was pretty interesting..
Not the usual gory shit and all..it was pretty informative
Bored.Bored.Bored
Its way too late to call Glash..guess she must be fast asleep now..
I miss all the late night talks with my kakis last holiday season..
Oh and I chatted with Daniel after so long..
I COMPLETELY FORGOT HIS BIRTHDAY!!
it was on the same day as Glash's birthday
SIIIGHHH
Oh great..started sneezing already..
I'm outta here
Applied leave for today coz there's just so much I had to do..
Somehow..I ended up not doing much hahaha..
In fact I had an appointment for a massage session in the morning but I overslept!
WHY?
Coz the previous night I had gone to bed at 11pm like an angel
Then sat up wide awake at 2am.
NOTHING NEW RITE?
Would have been bored to death,luckily Sanjit called me at that time..
LUCKY FOR ME..UNLUCKY FOR HIM hahaha
I yakked and yakked for the next half an hour or so before hanging up
Then spent the rest of the night restlessly tossing and turning in bed
Ended up falling into a deep,tired sleep and woke up to see several missed calls & smses
Shoot..I was late so I just went on to the next part of my schedule..
MEET UP WITH LATSY FOR SHOPPING
Somehow I was ONLY about 8mins late hahaha..
We then spent the next couple of hours picking & choosing and finally got what we wanted after a whole lot of wandering around..
SHEEESH..I hate the crowds @ Causeway Point..
By this time we were practically starving..
OK OK..I DUNNO ABT LATSY BUT I WAS STARVING..
hahaha..went to BK to wolf down our meal while waiting for Latsy's bro
Oh yeahhhh so I finally met my twinny's lil bro!!
Hehehe nice guy..unlike the sis..pfft
HAHAHAHAHA...
*stares @ Latsy*
Too bad we could not take much photos..my wonderful hp battery was getting flat
As I was planning what to do next,Mary called me up
She needed to get down to Wdls & hey hey..since I was there already told her that I'd wait for her
So rotted around the area for a short while after Latsy & bro left..then met up with Mary..
She commented that I looked freaking tired..
Somehow I suddenly felt it too..although I practically didn't do much the whole darn day
After attending to her business we went for a drink then decided to take a slow bus ride back to Yishun instead of the MRT..
It was a nice..windy..drizzling night & we spent the 20 minute trip talking about spooky stuff!
We alighted at Northpoint & suddenly I had a craving for waffles..I dunno why..
Maybe it was the warm scent of the waffles on a cold night..
I bought some for myself & mary then we took another slow walk home..
This time..it was kinda raining but we walked slowly anyways..
NEITHER ONE OF US WANTED TO TAKE THE RISK OF FALLING WHILE RUSHING!
Well Mary walked me to my block then went on her way home..and here I am now...
Trying to re-schedule my massage appointment..
Hahaha..
Yeahhhh its Saturday tomorrow!!
I need to catch up on some rest..
Hope I can get that massage session in tomorrow..
Hmmm..
P/S: Twinny.. I had a nice time laughing & people watching today..I shall miss you once you start werk..nvm at least I have THAT certain photo to admire when I miss u..ahem ahem..
Mary..hugs hugs hugs..dun worry..your dreams will come true soon
Glash...WHERE ARE UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!
This is me,Patricia
