Just got back an hour ago from Glash's place.
Wheeeeeee finally saw Jaryl after so long!!!
He lost so much of weight..
I wanna go army toooo!!!
You know..its really not easy to pretend to be happy
I can forget when I'm surrounded by people but once I'm alone..the reality hits me like a ton of bricks
Why am I so afraid to speak out what's on my mind...
Why do I end up despairing?
I wanna be tougher,stronger and assertive but I can't...I rather avoid trouble
Been having a very strong gut feeling this whole week..
I dunno why,but I feel that someone or some people are hiding stuff from me.
I feel hurt
Whatever it is..I dun wanna be the last to know
With all these on my mind ...I find myself getting easily annoyed & overly sensitive to the actions of others.
Oh by the way Mary said one of her pals saw a photo I did for her on MSN & would like to know if I'm interested in an offer..I tried to decline coz I am not a professional and I do this stuff as a hobby & coz I just like to pick up new skills...I don't feel good charging for my amateur attempts..on the other hand I do know professionals who could very well do it for her..well see how it goes..hahaha...
I just feel weird..and very miserable..
I am surrounded by friends..why then do I feel so..alone?
I feel like talking out my fears but..
Maybe im condemned to suffer in silence.
Never asking.Never knowing.
This is me,Patricia