Had a long day today..
Hmm..feeling easily tired & very parched these days
I guess its the humid weather..
As well as the fact that I barely drink enough water
Met up with Mary..
Finished the day by having an early dinner of..hahaha..
CHICKEN RICE..again..
I am contemplating a serious change in career move..& hopefully get back to my studies
I'm getting seriously worried about the condition of someone close to me..
I hope her madness comes to an end & she realizes that she is hurting everyone close to her with her actions.
*Sigh*
BAD BAD PAT
i just literally licked the last spoonful of nutella giving the dainty teaspoon a nice polished finish
now i sit here staring guiltily at the empty jar.
2 EMPTY JARS OF NUTELLA IN 3 WEEKS!!
ok one of it was a smaller one..BUT STILL
the 3rd jar sits half full in the fridge
SIGH
i watch my food the whole darn day
then screw it all up at night
Had a pretty uneventful day
Thankfully i seem to have gotten over the emo period of last week
Sanjit's birthday is coming!!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Having said that I still dunno what I'm gonna do on his birthday
I reminded him to keep the day free though
hmmmm
still scouting around for ideas for the birthday boy
actually i do have several options
just trying to settle on the best
so i guess that's gonna keep me busy for some time
Ahhhh Tuesday again..
HEROES!!!!
Counting down the time to 0130hrs
MUST
REFRAIN
FROM
SNACKING
arrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Saturday ROCKED!!
Well for starters I woke up late..around 2ish
Had a bad throat and a stiff neck to boot
Then I checked my hp and saw that I had smses & missed calls from Mary..
See,the thing is she was entitled to a one night stay at The Marriott Hotel & it was pretty last minute by the time she rememebered that the deadline was close..so we had to make full use of it.
Koko was tied up with work commitments & Rathi's prolly on some business trip on God knows which part of the world..so it was just Mary & I!!
I was feelin darn lousy when I woke up but I knew I JUST HAD TO BE THERE with Mary..and besides ..I had no other plans so this was way better than rotting at home..
Met Mary at Orchard & Debbie joined us too..since Sanjit was in the area we told him to pop in if he's free..
By that time I wasn't really in such a crappy mood
THIS WAS GONNA BE FUN!!
hahahahaha
We checked out our hotel room and u know what.
It wasn't just a normal room.
IT WAS A FREAKING GODDAMN SUITE
Ok..a Junior suite..BUT STILL..
It was uber cool la..
All 3 of practically behaved like kids in a candy store oohing & aahing even though it wasn't our first time in a hotel..
hahahahaha
The bathroom was TO DIE FOR!
We were provided with BVLGARI toiletries!!
Debz was starving so when Sanjit called to check on us we told to him come on up & check out our suite..
He was impressed!
Ermm he wasn't too impressed when he saw that I was a complete idiot with the key pass & had difficulty opening the door but HEY SHUT UP..hahahaha..
Introduced Debz to Sanjit then the 4 of us walked out to Far East for dinner..
We had..what else..LJS
hahahaa..but yeah it was super packed..it being a Saturday night n all..
We had a nice time yakking and laughing over our meal & then decided to continue our conversation in the comfort of the suite...
We yakked & yakked away without realising that time was flying past..soon Debz left & after a while Sanjit left..
After seeing Sanjit off at around 4am...Mary & I walked back to the hotel but instead of going straight up to the 26th floor we detoured to the pool area..
Even at that time of the night it was breathtakingly beautiful
Too bad we couldn't take a dip..
We were kinda tired out by the time we got back to our suite & a little hungry..
So after changing both of us jumped on to our super comfy bouncy bed and shared tuna & sardine sandwiches with ice cold root beer while watching a re-run of Remington Steele..
We slowly drifted to sleep around 5am while talking about the evening..
It was nice & I felt peaceful..
ok fine..i felt HAPPY in fact coz of certain things..but..we'll talk about that some other time
I was tired but I didn't fall asleep..I just lay awake watching the sky and listening to the sounds of the city around us..around 6ish I got up and went to explore the suite a bit more..
It was such a nice feeling looking down at the city with the sun barely out yet..
The roads were empty save for the solitary car speeding past..
I knew that within minutes the city below would be bustling once again but just for that moment..just for that moment..I closed my eyes as I pressed my face against the glass panel..I imagined that I was the only one in the city..
Mary woke up early..she barely slept 3hours..she joined me on the couch of our living room area of the suite and we blissfully lazed around in our night clothes talking about random stuff..it was surprising how much we could STILL talk after all that yakking the night before..
Then around 9am I went to take a long shower & a soak in the hot tub
I think I took longer than expected coz by the time I came out it was so bright everywhere..
Guess I was in there for more than an hour!!
I dried out my hair by the time Mary went to take her shower..and since I was feeling pleasantly groggy by this time...I went to apply my make up & do my hair in order to save time later..
Mary was out sooner than me..and we quickly changed and walked across to Shaw Ctr to grab some MacDonalds
After that the time passed very fast and soon it was close to check out time..for all our time there we did so much talking & relaxing that we forgot to take much photos!
Oh well..there's always a NEXT time..
I came to Yishun by MRT & went to buy lunch for my family as per mum's orders..
SIIGH..
yeah Yishun seemed so boring compared to the city hahaha
BACK TO REALITY
I didn't wanna sleep but somehow my eyes kept closing until finally around 4pm I gave in & crawled into bed..
Woke up at 10pm!!!
Took dinner & here I am now..
I may not have partied hard all night but I had a purely fun evening with people close to my heart..
That was all I needed to drive away the blues that had been consuming me..
Mary..thanks for being so generous..ur the reason we had that beautiful suite..
Debz..thanks for being such a good sport & staying back till so late even though you had church in the morning
Sanjit..thanks for coming by & being such a dearie..the gerls reli liked you =)
Au Revoir kiddos..
Just got back an hour ago from Glash's place.
Wheeeeeee finally saw Jaryl after so long!!!
He lost so much of weight..
I wanna go army toooo!!!
You know..its really not easy to pretend to be happy
I can forget when I'm surrounded by people but once I'm alone..the reality hits me like a ton of bricks
Why am I so afraid to speak out what's on my mind...
Why do I end up despairing?
I wanna be tougher,stronger and assertive but I can't...I rather avoid trouble
Been having a very strong gut feeling this whole week..
I dunno why,but I feel that someone or some people are hiding stuff from me.
I feel hurt
Whatever it is..I dun wanna be the last to know
With all these on my mind ...I find myself getting easily annoyed & overly sensitive to the actions of others.
Oh by the way Mary said one of her pals saw a photo I did for her on MSN & would like to know if I'm interested in an offer..I tried to decline coz I am not a professional and I do this stuff as a hobby & coz I just like to pick up new skills...I don't feel good charging for my amateur attempts..on the other hand I do know professionals who could very well do it for her..well see how it goes..hahaha...
I just feel weird..and very miserable..
I am surrounded by friends..why then do I feel so..alone?
I feel like talking out my fears but..
Maybe im condemned to suffer in silence.
Never asking.Never knowing.
FIRST UP
MOST IMPORTANTLY..
SINCE ITS PAST MIDNIGHT & OFFICIALLY THE 25TH OF FEB 2008
I WANNA WISH
GLASHRYL MARIA SOLOMON
HAPPPPPY FREAKKKING BIRTHDAYYYY !!!!
this is the day you have been counting down to
AND
u know what
its finally here
ur finally 14
*gasp*
Will see u at the party tonight birthday gal
*counts down the hours*
Before I say anything else..
HEROES IS BACKKKKK!!
yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!
Ok so we are waaay lagging behind the US release but still..they're here now =)
I went to bed at 9pm last night but set the alarm for 12.30am to catch the first episode of Heroes 2.
In case ur wondering why I didnt catch the earlier time slot of 9pm..its coz my wonderful family has booked that timeslot for their crappy Indian soap operas.
GAG
I checked the cable guide and the show was supposed to be at 1.30am so that gave me ample time to yak on MSN
I was glued to the TV for the next hour & at the end of it I could only say...
WHOA
So totally worth the wait..so totally worth resisting a sneak peak since middle of last year
If there are people out there who still have no idea what I'm talking about..
EAT DIRT LA!
hahahahahaha
Seriously..u oughta check it out.
Been so totally down in the dumps lately but was jolted out of my grumpiness when my dear buddy told me he was ill..he's been seriously overworking himself & now he's suffering from the after effects.
I know I said I would not touch Nutella but I just bought a new jar.
A BIGGER ONE.
So I'm addicted...FINE..sue me.
It's just toooo yummmy...
I pay dearly for my Nutella adventures..by winding up with a bad throat & rasping cough the next morning
SIGH.
Am in a better mood today..applied for some jobs..lets see..lets see..
I really need a change of working environment in order to make any progress at all..
Okies..tired tired tired..catch y'all later
POSITIVE.positive.positive.POSITIVE.
I'm starting to lose grip of that word
Just for once I'd like to stamp my feet,cover my ears & SCREEEEEECH at the top of my voice
How much is a person to bear when its so obvious that NOTHING is going on SMOOTH?
I did promise myself to be patient
To think before I rant
To remember mistakes of the past when words were spoken in haste
BUT
I'm only human
I have feelings too
Sometimes I do feel hurt just that I choose to laugh it off
Yesterday was such a day
There was a minor dispute at home between the parents
I kept out of it coz really..its none of my business
I must admit though that the torrent of words hurled at each other was getting on my nerves
It would have taken me just under a minute to get in there and yell at both of them to shut the f**k up
I didn't
I just concentrated on the show I was watching
Later at night I thought about some other stuff
I could feel the lump in my throat
Only I know how much confusion & pain I'm enduring
Not everything can be shared in public
As I lay down staring up at the full moon
I consoled myself
Yet,
To my horror & self disgust
I felt the tears welling up in my eyes
Damn
Betrayed by my heart
I brushed aside the angry tears & closed my eyes
How long more?
I dunno if I can continue being this patient.
I don't wanna be a jolly good woman on the outside
Only to be a dried up bitter waste on the inside
I didn't realise how tired I was till I SURPRISINGLY went to bed at a mere 11pm last night & slept all the way thru
only to wake up at 10am this morning!
I felt a rush of panic as I lay in bed wondering where I was supposed to be!
Hahaha
To add to that..I have been sneezing non-stop ever since I woke up..like every 10 mins or so..and right about now my head & throat hurt from all that sneezing and coughing
ugh.
I have also been noticing that of late my skin has been looking dull & darker
I was puzzled about that coz I have not been outdoors in the sun for some time
The only reason for this sudden change in my skin condition had to be LACK OF WATER
I have been guzzling so much pepsi max recently & barely drank much plain water over the past week..my first meal of the day also usually starts at 5pm..I guess all these unhealthy habits are catching up with me..and oh yeah..my late nights too..
Been so worried so have made up my mind to try to do the following:
keep away from soft drinks & try to drink more plain water when I'm thirsty instead of grabbing the nearest juice carton from the fridge.
sleep before 3am(hey hey..its a gradual change ok)
increase intake of fresh fruits & veggies
exercise & sweat out the toxins
I used to be very particular about skin care in my teens..and religiously kept away from commercial creams & cosmetics,choosing instead to prepare my own facial packs & scrubs..*sigh*
however once I started working I just got too tired to bother..
I guess its time I start caring for my body coz no one else is gonna do it for me!
Ladies..we're only young once,its up to us to maintain our youthful looks
So if you haven't started yet..START NOW
Perhaps I'll post up some facial tips in the coming days for those who're interested..wheeeeeeee
Till then...I leave you with this song ..this is my FEEEEEL GOOOD song hahaha it always makes me go YEAH..YEAH..YEAH...
Enjoy
THINGS THAT MAKE ME GO
HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA
As you can see I'm crazy about Jim Carrey & family Guy..that scene in the Borat movie made me all ticklish I kept replaying the dance scene over and over again hahaha..hey there are many more clips that make me clap my hands and laugh out loud..but enjoy these for now..
Saturday Saturday..
Very lazy slow day today..woke up late and with the WORST sore throat ever
Sanjit had a good time imitating my squeaky yelps
Oh man..so many birthdays coming up!
Can't wait for Jan & Feb to be over
Ooooops..
NO OFFENSE JAN/FEB BABIES..I STILL LOVE YAAA!!
hahahahaha
Well been coughing away yet can't seem to steer clear of the Nutella jar in the fridge
Will be heading down to Sembawang staying over at cuzzie's place to keep her company coz her parents are away on a short trip to Desaru..
I just KNOW im gonna be bored as hell..
must remember to bring my mp3 player & this book I'm trying to finish..''Shadowmancer''..
its a dark fantasy story..and I'll discuss a bit about it later..
Ok gotta go now..
TWINNY has gone officially missing for the weekend..
tsk tsk
Glash I'll call u later on the way to Eve's house so
PLEASE ANSWER THE PHONE WILL YA!!
Still coughing away
ahem ahem
Met up with Koko today coz she was craving for LJS
Mary popped by for a short while to keep us updated on her latest job interview
Later went on a mini window shopping trip with Koko
Didn't go far..I mean our choices are PRETTY limited in Northpoint
Checked out some perfumes but didn't get any coz I couldn't make up my mind
OH YEAH
I'm like a perfume freak..I can keep sniffing and sniffing various scents without conking out!
I'm very fussy though..I hate fruity scents & the typically generic types
I have a loooong wishlist on perfumes I want but which are sadly not easily available in Spore
HMMMPH
Never mind..I will get my hands on those yummy fragrances sooner or later
This morning woke up with a jolt from a freaky nightmare..
Closed my eyes after a while only to be greeted by a sequel to the first nightmare!!!
This time I woke up with my heart beating fast.
I didn't sleep after that but felt incredibly tired and moody
Its funny..
Whenever I used to complain about nightmares my mum and aunts used to nag at me for staying up late at night watching too much horror flicks or reading all those local horror books..they claimed that the root of my nightmares & uneasiness stemmed from this kinda stuff.
The thing is I have not been exposing myself to such macabre stuff for sometime now..yet I still get this kinda nightmares..
Hmmm.
Oh well.
currently addicted to this beautiful preppy song
Click on this to get linked to YouTube
or
Wait patiently for my profile song to finish then watch this..
duh
Hey ho..
What's up people..
Been rather demoralised ,tired AND sick hence the late update
haha
Finished work rather early the past couple of days so took the opportunity to catch up with Mary
On Tuesday we basically met up for lunch at the coffeeshop next to her home
YES I MISS THE COFFEESHOP DAYS!!
hahaha
we had our STANDARD chicken rice meal and were discussing work issues when suddenly out of nowhere it started pouring heavily..we decided to continue our convo at her place..its been years since I went to her place even though we live like 10 mins away from each other..
Went back home after that and YEAH thats when I checked my mail and saw the sickening message which I had posted about..anyways that's over.
Well yesterday Mary and I could not decide what to do.I was still down with a bad throat & I was starving..but I could not make up my mind where or what to eat..haiz..we drifted from Burger King to LJS..i didn't feel like eating at LJS too..for once..
Then we went to the food court at Northpoint and settled for..yeahhh.CHICKEN RICE again..
Back in secondary school days Mary used to be known as the Chicken Rice Queen..coz that's the only food she bought during recess..apparently she had that nick waaay back from her Primary school days..
hahaha talk about DIE HARD FAN..
Oh and I made the fatal error of letting Mary listen to this particular tamil song on my Mp3 player..if ur a fan of Tamil film songs I'm sure by now you'd have heard the song..Arabu Nade..
Nice song right?
I used to like it..but that was SOOOOOO last year..and this Mary apparently NEVER heard it before!Or rather never had the time to listen to it properly before..BUT she was addicted and kept replaying and replaying and humming the song till I had to cover my ears hahaha
We were still bored..ok wait..I was still bored so we decided to go down to Sembawang Pk..I felt like relaxing and watching the sea..so yeah we went..and walked down to our usual spot ..someone had actually moved one of the benches almost to the very edge which meant that when we sat down we were practically dangling our feet above the water..WHICH WAS FUN!!!
We sat like that..me in silence watching the waves & Mary listening to the song & trying her best to get the lyrics memorized..we were there in that same position for the next 3 hours!I have always been wondering what lay on the opposite side of the shore far far away..and Mary was explaining to me that it was Malaysian waters on that side!I mean I always thought it was but she CONFIRMED it..
Soon by 8pm we trudged up slowly to the bus stop then took a long bus ride home instead of taking the MRT..
Oh and another thing that shocked the crap out of me yesterday!!
I was waiting for Mary under my block and listening to my mp3 when there was a ruckus and a sudden wailing sound and this big,fat,Garfield like cat dashed towards my direction with a big mynah in its mouth!!
I was so terrified I bolted out of that area pronto!
It really wasn't funny let me tell you that..in the first place I am a little afraid of birds after having been attacked by crows twice a couple of years back..but to see & hear that mynah screeching in distress was more than i could bear.
Oh yeah and one more thing..I had always wanted to get a cat but now..
FORGET IT.
I had wanted to come in here and post happily about the day I had
However an email someone had forwarded to me has really spoilt my mood
Someone HATES me for no apparent reason I can fathom
The only concession I can make is that this person is mentally disturbed and needs medical help
I have had a normal decent childhood & I don't appreciate the fact of people commenting on my behaviour based on my upbringing..if this person's upbringing was FAULTLESS then how come this person is so INSECURE?
Yes..insecure.
Afraid that HER loved ones would be close to me and not her.
Im disgusted and sickened by the email this person sent to ANOTHER person talking about ME
I started typing out a reply in anger then deleted it
I don't wanna cause a major war of words for this..BUT...yes I'm very HURT.
Down with very bad sore throat
Guess all that Nutella licking is catching up on me
*stares at Glash*
On a more sombre note..
I have this person who is very dear to me..
A certain family member
Lets call her E..
*Rewind*
We grew up together and even though we were different in so many ways
E was like a younger sister to me
She was the only kid to her parents & I was the only kid to mine
As years passed I turned out to be the silent,brooding one
E was always cheerful & the life of every party
I hated school & studying
E never missed a day of school & studied hard
I crumpled my failed test papers & threw them out of sight
E pestered her teachers to find out where she went wrong
The one similarity we shared was our passion for music
She used to compose music & play the organ & I used to sing
For several years this was the scenario
Soon in the late 90's,her family shifted from Yishun
That's when we saw less of each other
*Fast Forward*
E has done fairly well in her studies with plans to go even further
I happily settle down into the groove and grind of office life
There is a strange occurence though
These days I am cheerful & always in the midst of gatherings
E has become some sort of a recluse
I love hanging out with my friends
E hardly has a friend to call her own
She keeps away from family gatherings
Even when she is present ,she seldom partakes
She chooses her answers carefully when she speaks
When she DOES speak..she speaks in circles & philosophies..like an old lady
She can't get along with people outside
She doesn't WISH to get along with anyone
She just wants things to be done the right way
HER way
I talk to E as usual
I try to cheer her up
I try to make her optimistic
It all falls on deaf ears
Slowly we started getting complaints from her parents
The girl was flying into flaring tempers & getting violent
Her house is shrouded in a dark cloud of unhappiness
Her parents have lost the spark in their eyes
Her room is scattered with hundreds of expensive items..
none used all brand new
Her study room is filled with old books,notes piled high
Her organ player lies neglected under a beautiful rug
There's loads more that's happening but talking about it would be a total invasion of her privacy
& besides it makes me sad.
It made me even more sad when I found out that she has some resentment towards me.
She has everything..a home,loving parents,intelligence,culture,high education
Me?
When I think of all the times I have goofed off & been a total black sheep while E studied day and night..I feel like questioning the irony of it all.
I realise that I'm so blessed to have so many warm & loving friends surrounding me
Many of them are just a phone call away
I think of E sitting alone at home surrounded by books and more books
Not a soul to call and say Hi to
Her mind traumatised by God knows what.
who lives in a pineapple under the sea?
lalalalalalalaaaaaaa
woke up to the sounds of Spongebob Squarepants
yeah one of the rare Sundays where u find me awake b4 noon
My uncle & cousin Glash will be poppin in after church hence I woke up slightly earlier to get ready
Ever since my Aunt Anna's leg surgery the place has been swarming with visits from relatives and friends
The house wasn't even this noisy during Xmas!
Well I havn't seen Glash in a looooong time..the last being our movie outing before skool re-opened..
I doubt she'll be staying for long though today coz its a skool day tomorrow...
Haiz..
Been behaving in a very zombified manner the past few days
I just realised that I have been drinking Pepsi Max or apple juice non stop too
Its been 3 or 4 days since I drank plain water
OMG
i know its bad but sometimes I just completely forget!
Yesterday our ex-neighbours+long time family friends came to visit..this couple have 3 adorable girls whom I have carried and played with since they were tiny tots..the whole gang trooped down yesterday shouting..''PAT..PAT ..PAAAAAT..PAT..PAT..PAAAAAAT''.. in a combined chorus all the way from the lift lobby downstairs..so my day was spent entertaining the 3 hyperactive girls all below the age of 7
I barely had time to sms or answer calls from my buddies
SORRRRIIIIEEEE GUYS..
Even though I was tired I still went to bed late..yeah as usual around 4am..
Old habits die hard I guess..
I think Glash is calling me now...
Laterzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
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Glash and my uncle just left
We had so much fun totally laughing away in my room
We were testing out the ringtones on my new hp and this crazy cousin of mine was doing various dance reactions for each tone!
Not to mention the fact that both of us opened up a bottle of cool Nutella & spent a blissful time slowly licking our chocolatey teaspoons!
Well we barely had time to enjoy more coz my uncle had to leave..
So my dear cuzziee thanks for dropping by..
See ya next
on the 25th!!!!
*wink wink*
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I dunno why im posting so much today
too much to say I think
the skies have turned dark
thunder has been rumbling continuously for the past hour
I sit in my darkened room
In my favourite corner of the bed next to the window
The slight rain misting across my face
Reading a Mary Clarke Higgins suspense thriler
Nibbling on a cold sweet mandarin orange
PERFECT
4.41am and I'm not even sleepy yet
My place was bustling with activity right until midnight when the last of my relatives left
In fact we only had our dinner around that time
Its incredibly boring.
These days I don't call or sms people much
If they wanna talk to me let them do the contacting
I had enough
On a lighter note,chatted with Rathi online
SHE GOT A TATTOO!!Apparently she got it done on one of her trips to HK
She'd be flying off again next week so hopefully the four of us could meet up before that...
She gets to travel so many countries in the course of her work
I WANNA TRAVEL TOOOO!!hahahahaha
I miss my usual late night gossip kakis..
Twinny extremely busy
Daniel serving his NS
Glash back to school
SO BLOODY BORED- I have read some chapters of my new book
- I have watched videos on YouTube
- I have picked up some new tricks with Photoshop
- I have edited some photos for my friends
- I have changed my Friendster page song
- I have changed my blog page song
I dunno what else to do except to go to bed and try to fall asleep while listening to music
My mum commented that my eyes are getting hollow from lack of rest
My aunt went so far as to comment that my face looked totally bashed up.
GEE..THANKS GUYS.WHAT WOULD I DO WITHOUT UR POSITIVE COMMENTS? I JUST need a massage..an hour long facial.. a good hair spa treatment..
I just need to
RELAX
Had a long tiring day
My feet aches worse than ever
Coupled with stomach cramps
Mental stress
Slept at 5am woke up at 6.30am
I feel so weary to the point where I don't wanna think about anything or anyone anymore
Spending so much money on so much useless stuff
Arrghhh I need to start controlling my bad habits
I love to be in the company of my buddies yet these days I just crave solitude
Told mum off this morning
Gosh ..these people keep picking on my words
I can't say anything RANDOMLY
I'm 27..surely I know my rights from wrongs yeah?
If they are not commenting on my choice of profession,they're commenting about my lack of interest to get hitched
I'm really sick and FREAKING tired
Yes I know that we all need a family to love & to nurture responsibilty in ourselves
but come on I AM STILL TRYING TO SURVIVE AS A SINGLE YOUNG WOMAN
I don't need extra responsibilties till I'm READY
I don't appreciate people asking me if I ''HAVE SOMEONE IN MIND''
I may and I may not BUT I feel that its none of anybody else's business
Its not as if I'm staying out late nights or having some kinda happening lifestyle
Damn.
I always thought that I'm most at peace at home,or in the areas surrounding my home
These days I just wanna go away
Far far away..the further the better
Had a super interesting day today..
Arranged to meet up with Mary for lunch
We headed down to Vivo around noon and caught up on our gossip in the mrt
Both of us were STARVING so headed to LJS (what else!)
Sanjit took some time off his werk & joined us for a while
FINALLY i managed to intro one great buddy to another
Hahaha as usual had our funny moments..
Then after we bid Sanjit goodbye we went on to walk around the mega mall
Since it was Mary's first time at Vivo brought her to the pools upstairs & we were one of the few freaks splashing about in the pools IN THE RAIN hahaha
Took some photos but not that many coz Mary's camera memory was full then finally after surveying the entire area we sat down,and waded our legs in the knee deep water and chit chatted..sooo nice hahaha luckily we were practically alone..
Koko kept calling us to go over to her place as she was bored and alone at home..so after Vivo trip we took the MRT down to Admiralty to her place..then another old friend of ours,Alvin decided to pop by & soon we were all sitting down listening to the tales of his recent Melbourne trip..he took some awesome pictures too..
I WANNNNA GO AUSSSIEEEE!!!
Time really passed while we were busy catching up and laughing and soon Koko's hubby John came home..he sat down with us and we were having a great time dissing Koko's fave RnB music & Ajitkumar...OMG it was hilarious..the usually silent John did a comedic RnB ass spanking dance in imitation of Koko..ignoring her threats .. after a while it was just Alvin,John and me talking enthusiastically about rock music & old skool movies..poor Koko and Mary sat silently wondering what the hell we were talking about...poor gals..U GIRLS DUNNO WHAT UR MISSING!!!
soon Mary & I made a move around 11pm as it was realllly late & Alvin stayed behind to dicuss some stuff with John..I was tired and Mary was suffering from caffeine withdrawal symptoms..we 4got our no-taxi rule and hopped into a cab..
Whoa..had a reallll fun time..just wish Rathi was around..God knows which part of the world she is in right now..
Okie..am really tired..
Adioz amigos
PS:My darling twinny finally cleared her medicals..YAAAAAAY!!
Dear Glash i hope ur feelin much better..will call u tmrw ok..
Didn't do much today
Got back early thanks to my aching feet
I have been whining about this problem to my mum and friends since last year
Well mum feels that enough is enough and she may take me to see the doctor this week
I'm just trying not to worry but seriously the pain is unbearable at times..
I have to pretend to walk as normal when I'm outdoors coz its not very ladylike to be hobbling about..rite?
You should see me at home.
Sometimes I have to hold on to the nearest solid object for support.
Sigh.
Was hanging on the line with Glash
Discussing her birthday plans..hahaha..
OMG
So many of my loved ones are celebrating their birthdays within the next few weeks.
I never realised I was surrounded by so many Aquarians!
There goes my moolah...
HAHAHAHA
I have so much stuff on my mind
Yet they are matters that I can't even talk about
Why?
Coz talking is NOT gonna help me this time
Some decisions have to be made
Not just contemplated
So..yeah
Till then am just trying to remain calm
Well the weekend went by uneventfully..but today,the moment i woke up I knew that it's gonna be a shitty day..bad vibes.I find myself trying to be all happy and on the go but people keep getting in my way.
I'm also very hurt by the realisation that people whom I considered as buddies & advisors can turn out to be so uncaring & distant.It makes me feel like all those years of friendship was nothing but an empty shell.
The trust that I placed in them..which others questioned but I ignored..is now wearing off.
Time after time..these are the kinda friends who follow the 'out of sight,out of mind' mantra i guess.
THESE are also the friends we should avoid being too close to.
2008..I am slowly striking this people off my life.
I don't need the excess baggage in my journey.
Just remember,there is such a thing called retribution.
This also goes out to some sharp tongued,lying whores out there..who shamelessly slander the names of the innocent..I have a sense of decency & sensibility which prohibits me from mentioning their names(unlike them)
If you are hiding somewhere reading this..let me tell you something..you're SHAMELESS,you're DESPICABLE,you're PATHETIC & you seriously need some help.If that doesn't work then a tight slap would suffice I guess.I'm not gonna worry myself or get worked up over these kinda BORN LOSERS...somehow whatever they deserve will come to them..
Sorry this post sounds so severe but yeah,some people need to be told off and I have been silent for too long.
Saturday & I am feeling blue
Don't ask me why...I'll get around to that LATER
Anyways Twinny smsed me last night to catch this malay horror movie on Suria..
I had to pry the rest of the family members away from their daily dosage of Tamil soap operas or mega serials or whatever crap u call 'em things..
The movie was called..erm..wait lemme try to recall..ahh yeahh..Jangan Pandang Belakang
I think it roughly translates to Don't Turn Back or something to that effect..I dunno much Malay having only picked it up here n there from my malay friends at my old workplace..
The movie looked very interesting..the opening itself focused on an exorcism ritual by a bomoh..
Thankfully mum was around to translate some stuff for me..
Oooh the movie was good...it really freaked me out at certain scenes..
Would have been power if had English subtitles but oh well good enough I guess.
It's just started raining & I have got this bout of flu suddenly
Yeah..itchy throat and nose and sneezing every 3 minutes
Was supposed to go to for sunset Mass with Eve but she didn't call me yet
Guess I won't be going after all
Let's talk about anger..
I have been wondering..
Which is better
Is it better to immediately let your anger show & thrash things out then and there?
OR
Is it better to put up a cool front & swallow the anger for that moment so as to avoid blowing up the matter?
I am genuinely confused..
When I feel annoyed and let my anger show,I fear that people may portray me as hot tempered & impatient.
On the other hand,when I control my temper and try to continue as if I'm unaffected..sooner or later the anger builds up and THEN I end up saying MORE than I'm supposed to.
Sigh..
I must say that over the past month I have been sticking to my resolve to be more optimistic & patient
Each time I feel anger rising in me I swallow back the sharp words on the tip of my tongue & turn the entire scenario into a joke..but now I'm slowly starting to fray at the edges I think..
Hahaha well ok whatever rite?
Im fine.
Just a little sad at some stuff but well I'll just wait and see how things turn out..
Wish I didn't sound so dismal
Gah...wanna sneeze again..
Ciao
I have nothing much to say today
but I thought I'd share this beautiful video by a purely talented guy
The lyrics are so true.
Trust me..you may not like it upon the first listen..
It's the kinda song that grows on you..
then never lets go
Oh well guess I'll pop in here later..
Toodles
I feel so annoyed!
Why do people keep changing their user names on Friendster?
Its so bloody irritating when I wanna find them
I was trying to locate an ex-colleague of mine and she had changed her nickname AGAIN
For some strange reason could not even locate her thru her email addy
So had to go the loooong way and find her manually from my list of friends
I still couldn't rely on that coz I have like over 1000+ peepz in my network
Then I remembered that she had been one of the first to send me a comment when I was a newbie on Friendster
So no choice..dived into all my past comments from friends in order to trace this moron
Guess what
I have about 2500+ comments
I could not skip several pages at one go
I had to literally click page by page to get to the end
Well..no choice rite
So I did it
Along the way I was amused to see the comments from my friends
Some of them I'm not in touch with anymore
Some of them have become my closest pals
I eventually found my ex-colleague
AFTER 1 HOUR OF CLICKING AWAY
sigh
Hey the weather seems to be getting colder since the start of January!
In fact Xmas week itself was super blistering hot..
I OUGHT to know since I have become like 2 shades darker with all that pre-Xmas running around..
sigh
I burn easily.
Somehow no appetite the whole day..been feeling peckish.
The other day I was relaxing while getting my hair washed at my friendly neighbourhood salon..
the place was empty coz it was mid afternoon and my hairstylist was extra nice and giving me a
MUCH NEEDED light massage..
I was LITERALLY floating THEN they started playing this song by Mika..
Remember Mika?
That high pitched slim built guy whom u either LOVE or HATE
I love his stuff much to the disgust of my male buddies
I think its his latest song..and I remember Glash telling me about it like months ago..
I like Mika but I remember not really liking this song when I first heard it..
yet on that particular day as I was floating on a fantastic hair experience..
this song suddenly trailed out of the speakers..I was like whoa..this song is TRIPPY..so nice..
it made me reflect yet it didn't make me sad..so right now I'm addicted to it..
its called "Happy Ending"
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.
Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell
Had a long day today somehow managed to get thru without dozing off..
Well..the reason being I barely slept the previous night..
Some problems on my mind well lets not go into that now..
PROBLEMS are boring
hahaha
Well the highlight of the day was dinner with my darling buddy Sanjit..
Grrr he kept me waiting before he finally made his grand appearance hahaha
Since it was pretty much crowded everywhere we decided to head down to Swensens @ Funan..
The place was almost BARE !!
I didn't have much to eat the whole day and I was feeling light headed but by the time I munched on the side dish
and sipped my drink..
I felt strangely full.
Trust me..i ALWAYS finish my fish n chips..
This time I could barely finish half my meal..
I felt bad wasting so much food but I had reached my limit
Sigh
I think I spent too much time yakking away and laughing..
Hmmm
if that's the case..
SANJIT I THINK WE SHOULD EAT OUT MORE OFTEN!!!
01/01/08
When I opened my eyes groggily around 8am to check my hp,i saw today's date and smiled sleepily.
Its the start of a brand new year..
To me its like a slate wiped clean
Another chance to start off on the right note
I'm so determined to make this year go right for me
Well ok enough of the serious stuff hahaha
I SEEEEEEERIOUSLY need to get new glases
I realise that I've been using my contact lens virtually almost all the time
I don't even know where I kept my $200 pair of glasses and mum has been nagging me about it for eons..
New Year Eve was fun..I spent it with my family this year
Mum was busily lighting up candles and lighting fragrant incense sticks from church
I was bustling about in the kitchen frying popiah and chicken nuggets
The rest were clearing the table for the cake & wine
The radio was blasting the top 100 hits of 2007 on 96.8
Somehow by 11.55pm we all managed to complete our assignments hahaha and gather in the living room
for the countdown..then the phonecalls started streaming in
After that we all settled down to eat and drink and watch the Kamalhassan movie on tv..as usual everyone staggered off to bed and i was the only one left wide awake watching the song videos on Sun tv..for once they were playing loads of happening songs hahaha..
Twinny called and we hung on the line for some time till 2ish..then Glash called around 3am and we chatted away till 4am...hahhaaha..then I came online to check my mail & Friendster BUT I still didnt feel sleepy!
So went to read my book..and somehow around 4.30 I dozed off..
THAT'S how i spent my New Year Eve..
very domestic eh?
hur hur..
NEXT year..Twinny and I already planned to celebrate outdoors...so Twinny..don't forget eh..I'm booking u in advance!!
This is me,Patricia